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Freedom In Small Moments

Freedom In Small Moments

Originally posted on May 4, 2016 ElephantWords.co.uk It begins with anticipation. There is a subtle feeling that builds in your stomach but cannot be specifically defined. There is an anxiety, a need, a longing for freedom, to be carried shoreward. Yet you are still on land. You step into the water and paddle against nature but not to defy her, to join her. You continue until you find yourself in a vast expanse of ocean on all sides. Then you…

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The Dance

The Dance

Originally published Mar 9, 2016 ElephantWords.co.uk I reach to hold the position with the grace and balance expected of me. I hold my breath and release as instructed. Somewhere offstage I’m being conducted. The voice, barely audible and distant, lets me know we are about to begin. Breathe. I’ve been instructed to breathe. Breathe. My breath and heartbeat become more rapid and labored for no reason. It’s as if I’m about to be thrown to the lions. I’m filled with…

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How I Taught A Man A Lesson (A.K.A The List)

How I Taught A Man A Lesson (A.K.A The List)

It was a dark and stormy night, long, long ago, in a land far, far away, called My First Marriage. I was sitting peacefully in front of the television while my first husband. And he had just watched his first episode of Friends. It was painful getting to this point. I had endured a weekly argument before each new episode because he insisted on hating a show he had never seen. I wanted nothing more than to sit peacefully and…

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Chapter 25 Excerpt: I Can’t Find My Face

Chapter 25 Excerpt: I Can’t Find My Face

The first few years of a relationship are called the honeymoon period for a reason. Things are easy in the beginning. You’re full of endorphins, and nothing bad has happened yet. You think you know the person you’re dating, how they feel about you, and how they will handle the difficult times that are sure to come. Jake and I have done a lot in the last few years but none of it has been difficult or truly tested us….

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Chapter 24 Excerpt: The Fever, the Heatwave, and the Very Big Surprise

Chapter 24 Excerpt: The Fever, the Heatwave, and the Very Big Surprise

It’s hard to believe how much time has passed since I started and stopped internet dating. I began a naïve girl who had never been on a real date, became a jaded woman who thought she was happier single, and ended up a love sick school girl in a dream relationship. I just had another birthday, they won’t stop coming. As you get older, birthdays are less of an excuse to throw a party, and more like a chronic illness…

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Chapter 23 Excerpt: Nothing Makes You Feel as Ancient as Your Twenty Year High School Reunion

Chapter 23 Excerpt: Nothing Makes You Feel as Ancient as Your Twenty Year High School Reunion

It has been two years since I stopped internet dating. I am thirty-seven years old. Correction, I am thirty-seven and a half. I no longer live in Los Angeles and I’m still single. I have not gone on a date since I closed my internet dating accounts, and men no longer ask me out or speak to me. That’s the way I want it. I must give off a really scary vibe. Chloe and Lola are still married. Lola and…

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Chapter 22 Excerpt: Unrealistic Ideas of Love that Lead to Romantic Failure

Chapter 22 Excerpt: Unrealistic Ideas of Love that Lead to Romantic Failure

Keegan and I spent our days barefoot, naked, and free. We went swimming, digging frogs out from under the house, and running through the woods naked. We loved swimming so much we would do it anywhere. My pool, the neighbor’s pool, it didn’t matter. You might one day walk into your backyard and find toddlers you don’t know, swimming unattended in your pool, submerging themselves and holding their breath to keep from getting caught. And he read to me. I…

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